Suicide dad left note inside his sock

A DESPERATE dad threw himself in front of a train at the spot where he had a last minute change of heart just a day earlier, a jury inquest heard. Terence Crowley, 58, of Amesbury Road, Dagenham, had gone to Becontree Station on October 12 last year with

A DESPERATE dad threw himself in front of a train at the spot where he had a last minute change of heart just a day earlier, a jury inquest heard.

Terence Crowley, 58, of Amesbury Road, Dagenham, had gone to Becontree Station on October 12 last year with a note in his backpack which said: "Jumper's name is Terence Crowley" and detailed his address and postcode.

But he did not take his life that day and instead returned to the station at around 1pm on October 13, where he collided with a westbound tube.

The District line train driver on duty that afternoon told Walthamstow Coroner's Court how Mr Crowley jumped from the platform and lay facedown on the track.

The six-carriage Tube train was approaching Becontree Station at around 40mph.

Driver, Francis Pacifico, said: "There was nothing I could do. I applied the emergency brake and blasted the whistle as a warning.

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"Around three seconds later he was under the train."

The inquest heard that Mr Pacifico did not see anyone else near Mr Crowley and believed he could not have been pushed or jostled off the platform.

Police, firefighters and ambulance crews were called to the scene.

Officers found Mr Crowley's wallet with his driver's licence in it, from which they identified him.

PC Stephen Tucker of the British Transport Police told the jury a note was discovered tucked into the deceased's sock - identical to the one later found in his backpack.

Mr Crowley was pronounced dead at the scene by Dr Gareth Davies who said his injuries were "incompatible with life".

A post-mortem determined the cause of death was multiple internal and external injuries.

Mr Crowley's wife, Susan, told the court last Wednesday, January 25, that her husband was severely depressed for months at a time.

"It had been going on for about 10 years," she said. "His sleep would be all over the place. He lost his appetite and lost a lot of weight.

"There never seemed to be any reason for his low moods and it would take me a while to convince him to go to the doctor about it."

Mrs Crowley said she believed her husband's condition was genetic as he had a brother who hanged himself and another brother who would self harm with knives.

Mr Crowley was born in south Ockendon, one of 10 children, he was a doorman at the Hilton Hotel in London for over 30 years.

He and his wife married in 1976 and had one son.

The inquest heard he took great pride in his work and enjoyed gardening, golf, walking and bird watching in his time off.

The jury recorded a verdict that Mr Crowley killed himself while suffering from a depressive illness.

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